Sunday, February 19, 2006

the story of Hagar

The life of Hagar, written in Genesis, is a very touching story. Motivated by a tape I listened to in the fellowship, I read the story again.
I am deeply impressed by the fact that our God showed his care to Hagar, which was just a maidservant. It's not difficult to imagine that Hagar had a very bad self-image. She might had a hard childhood in egypt, else she wouldn't be a servant in a family living in Canaan. As a servant, she had nothing to proud of; she had no choice in her life; she became a "machine", carrying a baby for Sarai.....
Her poor self image is probably the reason why "she became to despise her mistress when she knew she was pregant. Succeed cannot help a person with a bad self-image, on the other hand, it leads to unhealthy responses which deep down in heart, makes the person worser.
Her first touch with God cured her, but might not be fully. After the birth of Issac, Abraham sent her and her son away, she collasped in the middle of desert. I tried to imagine her thoughts at that moment: the bitterness of her whole life floated up in her heart, there isn't any body, in the middle of nowhere, she and her boy, no water...
If God didn't show up, her thoughts might lead her to dealth. "God opened her eyes and she saw a well of water." I guessed the well itself was not a miracle, it was there, but with all negative thoughts in her mind, she was unable to see the hope.
As far as I remember, after the two touches with God, the bible didn't mention Hagar anymore. I think she still suffered a lot in order to raise her son, at least her life was bitter compared with Sarai. However, she probably learnt to look at herself at a new perspective. The love from God helped her to justify herself, and the hope brought her positivity.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Very good sharing. Good to remind myself that God help me whenever I'm in need.