阿叔 - 林尚義

讀過一篇林尚義的訪問, 百感交集.
阿叔給我的感覺,一個字:草根.
拍攪笑片的糟老頭子,這時面對的,是人生的苦澀.
草根的人很少把痛苦訴於哲學,或無力的宗教(如約伯的朋友),只是承受
訪問透視阿叔的內心世界,處處流露他對亡妻的思念,與兒子關係平淡的無奈,回憶往昔球場上的風光...
訪問提到今年的世界杯,阿叔放棄捧排陣精密的德國隊, 改捧激情的巴西.既然生命不是由人操控,何必籌謀,「有前無後,打死罷就」,的確有些道理.
今年的世界杯決賽,會是阿叔講的最後一埸球賽,未能見証, 一憾.

The team I hated most

From time to time, I heard the arguments whether we should support the Japanese in world cup. On one hand, they are representing Asia, but on the other hand, they invaded China in the past. Personally, I take no side on this issue. But this year, I found the team I hated most, USA.
The reason is not really related to the style they play, may be partially related to the words of the commentators, but deep down, I hate America.
Hatred is something very deep, entangled with so many personal feelings, and honestly I don't know how to resolve, or even understand.

World Cup

I enjoy watching world cup. In a whole month, one could see so many things via football, it's difficult to describe.
I like to use world cup to recall what happened in my life. I like to ask myself, where were I last time? what am I going to do next time?

1994..I was having a summer job. Life was terrible. By the end of world cup 94, I was wondering what would happen in 98. "what would I do after graduating from university?"

1998..I was study master, my research was so bad, I was lost again. By the end of world cup 98, I was wondering what would happen in 2002. "I would have a stable job, but is it my destiny?"

2002.. I was a teacher, but I knew I was going to come to US. By the end of world cup 02, I thought it might not be able to watch it in 06. "am I going to finish my PhD in 06?"

2006..I am here. ..Before asking what happen in 2010, I should enjoy this month first.

Tonkatsu

I like eating at Japanese restaurant here. But the names of food in menu are usually direct translation of Japanese pronunciation, I seldom order somethings I don't understand. Today, I didn't know why, the name "Tonkatsu" in the menu caught my eyes, and I asked the waitress what's that. She explained in a couple of words, my bell rang, that's 吉列猪扒.
I ordered it, but then I realized that I haven't eat that for a couple of years. Suddenly, I wanted to cry. Of course I didn't cry, but I neither didn't quite understand my feeling. May be, it's the passage of time which trigger me, or I miss the life before. But when I think deeper, 吉列猪扒 is something so common in hk restaurants, but now I almost forget such a name.
I ate the 猪扒, the taste was not that great.
I know that deep down, I project that hk is good. At the same time, I also know that it's not really true, just like the 猪扒.