Deserve It

I got admitted to a summer school in france, I am going to spend a month in the middle of the French Alpine. On one hand, I am really excited, but on the other hand, I feel nervous and I am always wondering if I deserve all these good opportunities.
I realized that I have a problem: I want to use my "own ability" to achieve and put God in a supporting role.
Say if I work hard and publish a paper, I would thank God. But deep down, I put God as a supporter and I somehow the succeed as my own contributions, and that's why I feel unhappy when I could not see my own part.
It reminds me the prayer of the Pharisee.
"'God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get." He did good stuffs, but he thought that's his contribution. He deserved.
I am still far away from understanding the meaning of thanks God. I hope I could truly understood everything I got are entirely from God.